I have no control (bit of a rant)

God, things lately have just been making me want to scream. I honestly don't have control over anything anymore. Nothing. It's driving me up the wall. I think a big part of it is because I'm living at home again. At first it wasn't so bad, it was kinda of nice to be home, then... It just all went to hell. I started working for my dad, which wasn't so bad. Minus the 5AM mornings and working in a warehouse wasting potential. Then my mother left us all and went to Mexico for a week and a bit. That was alright, no more 5AM mornings, just looking after Maddie. You'd think that would be easy, but like most of us, she has some very unpleasant moments, and as family I get to be exposed to them all!!!
So then I started working less, which meant less money. Then my mom came back, but with the adjustment of weather she caught a really nasty virus. She was out of commission, and once again I was looking after the spoiled brat. Finally she got better and I was able to get back to those 5AM mornings. I did that for a few days, but I couldn't stand the work - I'm pathetic, I know. It doesn't matter much because my mom had surgery!! So once again she was bed ridden and I was left to look after EVERYTHING else. You really don't think it's hard, until your in her shoes. Looking after a 15 year old isn't all that easy sometimes. I got really frustrated one day and told her that if I had wanted children already I would have had them, but I clearly wasn't ready.
Anyway, that leads to about where I am now, and don't get me wrong, that's not all that I don't have control over. There's a ton more. I also go to my cottage for 2 months, I've done it every summer and I love it up there. But I wish I could just spend the summer with my friends sometimes. Then of course there's friendships I don't have control over, I don't even want to get into those.
Maybe I'm a bit of a control freak... Wait... Yes, yes I am. I love to be in control. Lately I haven't been and I think that's actually drove me to the psychotic point. Fortunately few are actually exposed to that side of me. ;) It's alright though because in 75 days I will reclaim my freedom.