Speechless

...but totally not.
I'm so angry and sad at the same time it's crazy. But I freaking give up already. I lost it and I think I've gone crazy. I need a place to vent. I'm sick of drama and stupid stupid antics. I just like to live my life in a laid back manner and take things in stride. I like to forgive in forget and it works well when others do the same. Gosh why does stuff have to be so stupid some times? Why do people have to get so involved?! I just want to have a fun easy going summer but I think that's going to be impossible when the people I care about don't make it so easy. There's always issues that people have and I just don't know why they can't shrug it off. Maybe I've emerged myself into a life where I just shrug too much off as nothing. In fact I'm pretty sure that I've learned to do that. To block away the hurt. Maybe that makes me insensitive to others.
I've been driven to the point of me being a bitch and saying hurtful things to others. And I hate that I was weak enough to let it happen. I just got taken over by hurt/anger. I guess after I block out the hurt I just become a bit bitchy to make it go away.

Apart from today I had a pretty good weekend. Daddy took me to McDonalds for breakfast on saturday, he used to do it all the time. On the way in there were 2 deer infront of the car and he was looking out his window. So I yelled "DADDY! Look deer!!!" I felt like a kid again. It was awesome.