Life just sucks...

Today was crap, up until a certain point when I decided that I had to get the hell over my problems and just be happy. I mean sure I'm entitled to a few 'I feel crappy days' but sometimes it gets out of hand. I've had a very good life and I feel like I'm so accomplished, so why should I bother feeling like crap.
At work I was dropping EVERYTHING and running into EVERYONE. The nickname Clutzy was definetly appropriated for today - in fact I have 2 new bruises forming from my clumsyness. I just wanted to sit down and cry. I'm sure most people have those days - where absolutely nothing is going the right way. Then of course I had some bitchy customers who were being, well, bitchy and I didn't need that - even the guy who hit on me really obviously couldn't cheer me up. I just felt worthless.
After I got off work I was walking up the HUGE hill to Shoppers. It's 30 degrees outside and I was boiling (wearing all black from work...). While in Shoppers I spent a lot of money on things I didn't really need - Shopping therapy usually works. However at the same time I was fretting over money issues. How am I going to afford my two tuitions, rent, phone bill and then groceries?! It's just not going to happen, and as I learned last year - I can't rely on my dad for it. Then all of the sudden I decided I wanted to have a good day, I didn't want to sink myself further into a hole worrying about money and how I was going to cope. I'm sure I'll find a way and there really isn't a need to worry about it. So I put the 30 dollars I spent at Shoppers, the 25 dollars I needed for my police check for school, and the 25 dollars I needed to order cheques behind me and decided that I just don't care anymore, no more worrying because that won't solve anything!

So tonight I'm go to see Spiderman 2 (it's cheap night... only 6 dollars)! I'm going to have fun and make sure that this horrible day turns around into a better one!