First Kiss

Last night Linds and I went on a long walk and we started talking about all the first kisses that we've experienced. Some good, some bad, some heartstoppers. My little sister had her first kiss last night!! I think she'll kill me because I'm telling the whole world but I'm just so happy for her. She deserves it! She's 16, so cute! Anyway she made out with a guy who she likes, they were both a little intoxicated though so she wasn't sure if it meant anything to him. Well, he e-mailed the day after and told her he liked her so it's all good. I can't wait to see what happens next! I remember those days, I talk about them like they're over. It just seems so different now. You don't even really have to like a guy to kiss him, you just have to be in the right mood. As Linds and I discussed last night, it's SO much better when there are feelings involve. It just ups the passion.

I remember my first kiss, it was grade 9 and I was on a field trip in Sudbury. It really wasn't anything special, and it was crazy because all the other kids and teachers knew about it. But it was cute and I still remember it. We were in a stair well, everyone else was taking the elevators and they were so crowded so we decided just to walk. I guess we knew it would happen! Other than that there are only a couple of kisses that really stand out in my mind. I would say they were comparable to Ross and Rachel's first kiss. The hands and the built up passion, ya that. Gosh it was amazing. If I hadn't been sitting down it would have been a definite foot pop! It's weird to think that I think that the kiss was so amazing and the other person might not even remember it happening. There's another kiss I think I'll always remember and that's because such a big deal was made out of it. Apparently me just standing there was me asking for a kiss. I wasn't aware that that's all it took!

I love that moment. You know, when you're really close to someone you like and all you have to do is look at them in a certain way, or tilt your head to a certain angle and then bam! It happens. The anticipation of that is so amazing. Come to think of it that's got to be so much more fulfilling than getting drunk and making out with the first person you see.

Did you ever think you were in love? Then totally realise you weren't? I just remember in grade 9 saying I love you to guys, it was so fast. Such bull shit. Really I think anytime I've actually said I love you I've meant I like you a lot. In grade 9 I totally thought I was in love with this one guy, then I met someone else and totally fell in love with them, and then again, and again. Each time the feeling got stronger and I wondered how I could have thought I was in love with the previous person when the next one was so much more wonderful. I just wonder if life is ever actually like the movies. That you meet "the one" and you just know. Or I would totally love it if I fell in love with my bestfriend, like Chandler and Monica. (I am totally living through Friends lately). Imagine being in love with the person who knows you best and you could talk about anything with. That would be perfect. Right now my only problem is that my bestfriends are girls. Not really my thing!

You know, "Love is actually all around"