Life

Sometimes things all come crashing down at once and there really isn't much to do but try to deal with it and move on. That's so hard, so much easier said then done. There's that pain where everything just aches. Your heart feels like it's actually breaking, your tummy aches, and you feel cold inside. Then you just kind of shiver and it all comes crashing down. That's the way it works for me anyway.

"If I cry a little, die a little, at least I know I lived a little" - Haley, One Tree Hill
"Let me feel, I don't care if I break down" - Haley, One Tree Hill

So I'm feeling down right now, but well, there's so many different ways of looking at it. One of the things I keep telling myself is that if I wasn't down now I wouldn't know how awesome being up could be. Another way is the way Haley looks at it, it doesn't matter if I got hurt in the end because I experienced something awesome and that was so worth it. So what if I'm crying right now, I was happy before and I know I'll be happy again. There's just this downtime that I have to deal with. Another quote I like is "Never let the fear of striking out stop you from playing the game." That's from A Cinderella Story! Yup, I'm a loser! However, a quote like that makes me get over certain crap and play the game.

People can tell you stressing over certain things isn't worth it, that you should just get over it. But it's not that easy. Sometimes you have to take the time to deal with the crap and fix yourself before you can move on to other things.

I guess just like everything else it takes time.

What are you suppose to do in some situations? I really wish people would tell me what to say or do over certain things, cause I just don't know how to handle it! It's so confusing. I'm not ready to grow up and be in control of everything. People are always saying that communication is key and that's what relationships need, infact, I just told my little sister that she needed to talk to her boyfriend about something. Then, here I am keeping everything bottled up. It seems that sometimes that's the way it works... but by keeping things bottled up I'm building up all this insane pressure and soon it's just going to explode. Like a shaken can of coke.