Happy New Year!!

My new year started kind of interestingly, this guy who's been practically my life for a really long time ended all ties with me. It wasn't a bitter thing, it was just probably for the better. I can understand, I mean at that point in time we were on very different pages. I miss him loads and one of the only things I regret is the way I treated him, but hey, it was a learning experience. I'll never treat a guy the same way (negative way, of course!) and I've just learned so much from it. Like one of the most common mistakes people in relationships at this age, or I guess any age make. That mistake is falling so far for the person and spending so much time with them that you kind of lose your own life. It's silly, cause when you fall for each other you do fall for the whole package, then the further you get into it the more you kind of change. What I learned was time spent together was just as important as time spent apart. Just cause you love someone, or even really like them, doesn't mean you have to spend every waking second with them. I also learned that when you have something amazing infront of you, don't give up on it for something that might be amazing. It's not worth the risk, believe me.

Haha, he actually just messaged me and we went and hung out. Kind of random, yes, but I am the queen of randomness. I told him to look at someone's pictures from New Years Eve, then he wanted to see me. So we hung, it was nice cause I was happy and he was happy, an odd combination. I still miss him cause it was clearly different, but good nevertheless.

I really am frowning on relationships right now. I'm going to try to go a whole year without one. Someone once bet me I couldn't last a month without a boyfriend... I owe them 10 dollars. I like the comfort/stability of having someone there. But now instead I'm going to try to deal with not having that and see what happens. I think it might be a good thing, you know, get to know me. I think I'm kind of fun or something. I don't know!!! There are benefits to both - so I'm just going to ride it out.

I'm dancing... I've got music on and it's loud and it's dance worthy. If anyone walked downstairs right now I'd look like the biggest idiot, but it's fun. I love dancing!! So long as the music is loud and fast.

So this New Years Eve was better than the last (last year I was super, super drunk and cried... what a party pooper!!), hopefully that will predict a better year ahead. The last year has been good but a learning experience, so many weird things happening, I've got my resolutions, so here's to a new year!!