If you want the rainbow you have to put up with a little rain!

So, life is going pretty good. No promises or anything, but things are looking up. It just feels like a reminder, if you want the rainbow you have to put up with the rain. I mean if there was no rain how could we actually appreciate the rainbow? Sometimes the bad times are what really make us appreciate the good times. It's like that phrase - you never know what love is until you lose it. Then the next time you get it you appreciate it that much more. Who knows, maybe that's just me! I definately know that sometimes you need that jolt of reality and pain to put everything into a more clear image. If it weren't for the lows the ups wouldn't be half as good!

I think I've lost the ability to sleep. So wierd because I'm not one of those people! I've always been the kind of person who gets that solid 8 hours. Granted there have been the times that I've got like 3 (ahem and then had to work a full 8 hour shift, my first shift at Subway ever!!). But that aside I usually get my sleep. Over the past two weeks my schedule did shift with some pretty late nights but I thought I was in the process of actually shifting it back - you see I wake up earlier and earlier every day and get less and less sleep, figuring that night I'll actually be tired. As soon as my head hits the pillow I'm ready to go party! It's insane. Jeepers, can't sleep when I'm down and apparently I can't sleep when I'm up! I guess that's a sign.

I'm going to spend the weekend with Landon, and his family - they're moving and I'm going to help!! *shudders* Kidding! I want to help, otherwise I wouldn't go down, I'm just not really much of a physical labor kind of gal! But it's exciting to see him, even though it's only been 6 days. I'm trying to think of something to say but I really can't. I do have a lot to say but phrasing it right is different. I feel like my life needs some big changes. Firstly my friends, some are super good and some aren't. Why I hold on to that - I'm not sure, I'm scared to let go? I think being in University and growing up you do lose a lot of your friends and it's only worth keeping the ones who really are worth it. I just feel like there's a lot of people I hang out with that I actually have nothing to talk about with, it's just a group setting. Not many people challenge me intellectually or provoke me to be passionate about anything. I just find that some people are good to go out and get drunk with. I don't really picture doing much more with them! Part of my new years resolution was to become a better person - pretty general, I know! I think that includes being me for real. Well, duh, it does. I've got to give you people a dose of who I really am. Because contrary to popular belief I am smart and I do have a lot of opinions and passion!

Anyway, my point is that I'm singing in the rain, soon... I might be seeing my rainbow!!