In a world where you can be anything... just be yourself!

Today's a good day, I guess... I haven't done much yet - I've got night classes today! Anyway - we've got a new housemate with us for 4 nights a week, she has the pleasure of sleeping on the couch, lucky girl! I feel bad though because I have to walk through the living room to get to the bathroom. My bathroom is near the front door and you have to go through a couple of doors to get there, I guess last night as I was walking there I didn't want to wake Jenn so I must have pulled one of the doors closed behind me. As I was leaving the bathroom I was like - my god, it's dark - so I kept walking - right into the closed door!!! Brilliant move by Clutzy, yet again! No permanent damage done though ;).

I was trying to figure out me today, haha, that's a job that might take a lot longer than a day though, I'm pretty complex! But I was thinking, I love teaching, it's my passion. It's such an incredible job, in my opinion anyway. I know that about me, I know that's what I want to do and I miss teaching when I'm not (as a swimming instructor). Other parts of me are kind of blank. I know that I'm a very emotional person, I know that I like reading murder mysteries, shows like Law and Order, or suspensful movies. But other parts of me are missing, or so they seem. I find that we hang out with certain people because we have for so long but what do we really like to do... like on our own, in our own time. How do we fill it? I don't have many hobbies. I have my scrap book, I play computer games - but I don't think I have much. I know someone who uses his free time looking at cars on the internet, interesting for him. For me that sounds boring, but I don't have something like that... something that I find relaxing and necessary to do. Study? I'll be doing more of that this semester but it still doesn't seem the same. I think I know me, I know who I am and who I want to be, but I think part of it hides somewhere because people aren't used to it. I'm pretty solid in what I believe and my morals. However I don't feel like people know me I feel like who I am is kind of hidden. I don't become something I'm not to fit in with other people, I can't stand people like that, I don't think I've ever been like that. I've always been sort of independant. The more I think about it the more I realise I am independant. I'll walk places alone, I'll sit alone in class. I don't mind, I don't care what people think but there's a part of me that doesn't want to be alone and I think it's conflicting with the other part of me! Too confusing... I just want to be me and be okay being me. Meh, I'll figure this out!