Why can't you have it all?!

I don't get it. I really don't understand. The way I see it is that some of my friendships have fallen apart since I started pursuing getting back with Landon, I don't understand why. If all of my friendships had started to disappear I'd get it, but it's only a few. Why can't I have a boyfriend and keep the same friendships. Now I have to sacrifice one of the two because apparently I can't do it all. I'm not going to give up on Landon though, I've wanted to be back with him since November, it totally ate at me and I'm finally in a really good place with him and we're totally happy together. But now other aspects of my life are all screwy and I hate that. I don't get it, I still manage to maintain other friendships so why not these ones. I guess people just change.
Landon called at a bad time last night, I was bawling my eyes out. I actually think he was worried that some other boyfriend had dumped me because the only time I've cried like that was because of him! He was really sweet though, I love it when you cry infront of a guy and they don't know what to do! So cute :P. He was really sweet and decided he wanted me to come home tonight so he could pick me up and spend the night with me. That was originally what I had intended but you've got to make the guys think of it first, that's just the way it works. I'm going home again this weekend. Not for Landon, for a job thing on saturday. Plus my mom just got back from Mexico and Madds just swam at OFSSA, plus I gotta talk to my dad. Boo!! I have to go home the next weekend too! But that's for my placement on thursday/friday. Which isn't so bad, it'll be good to get it over with.
I've got sooo much stuff to do this month, I can't not believe there are only 55 days until the Summer... maybe even less because one of my exams might get moved. I marked all my assignments on a calendar and it's just jammed pack. Yippee!! But I've figured out strategies so that I'll all be started ahead of time and finished perfectly!! Yup, I'm a nerd. I have to be this semester though. Gotta get that average up!
Well, this blog was pointless but i just wanted to get some stuff down, then maybe I won't think about it all day. I was about to cry - then my cell phone rang and it was this lady, I thought it was Lara so I asked what was up and she asked what I was doing, I said sitting on my bed. Then she was like "I thought you were coming over" and I was like... "who is this?" then we laughed because it was a wrong number and she told me I should "get up and get moving" - it just put be in a better mood for some reason!