He's just not that into you!

I was just sitting here thinking, pretty much just daydreaming when I suddenly started to question the whole guys like it when the girls make the first move. It should be noted that I'm currently in a great relationship with a guy who I asked out (the first time, lol).
In my experince it has never really worked for me to make the first move. It either isn't all that good a fling or the guy ends up being a creep. Maybe I just have bad taste, but maybe only the good guys will make the first move?
This summer I spilt my guts to this guy I liked, kind of stupid of me, and I fell hard, but meh, I'm over it now, but I totally put myself out there. I guess it happens to all of us. Later on in the summer another guy asked one of my friends about me, I went right up to him and just said, "so you want my number?" Well he turned out to live in a box and be a creep. We won't get into details! Numero three was a guy at school near the beginning of the year. We exchanged numbers and I decided to get the guts up to call him (go me!). Well apparently by me calling him and asking him to hang out he thought I meant " PLEASE, come over and DO me." That was awkward. I just kind of wanted to get to know him. So my question is... do guys prefer girls to make the first move? Or if they actually like the girl enough will they do it? You'd think if the guy actually really liked the girl he'd just go for it and take the plunge. As far as I've seen from my guy friends they all seem to take the first step, but is that the case with all guys? Do they all not care about rejection?
I'm starting to think that if the guy likes you and you've given him your number he'll just take the plunge, so I guess, if he doesn't call that would pretty much mean he's just not that into you.

You always know the perfect things to say

I really wish I was quicker and better with words, some people are so witty and say the most amazing things at the right time, I clearly do not. I'm a flustery person and half the time I can't even get what I'm trying to say out! This weekend I said something somewhat quick, but it was probably the meaniest thing I've ever said. I guess alcohol does that! My point is, I really wish I could say the right thing in the moment, whether it be flirty and saucy or bitchy and mean. I'm the type of person who always thinks of the perfect thing to say right after - when it wouldn't even apply anymore.
I'm thinking of You've Got Mail right now, when Meg Ryan talks about how she doesn't ever say or know what to say and she thinks of it afterwards, except for this one instance where she says the perfect thing in retort, of course it ends up being bitch and she regrets it. I'm not one for living with regret though, so meh!
There are just sometimes I'm having a conversation with someone and I could say the funniest or flirtiest thing but it doesn't come to me until afterwards, instead I kind of studder around it. It always happens when I'm in a fight to, right after the fight I think "why the heck did I not say that, it would have been perfect." Or I'll be talking to friends and they'll just say I should have said this, or that, and then I start thinking "that's so easy, why did I not think of that!!" It drives me crazy actually! I need to be quicker on my toes!

What a wonderful world!

I've had the most wicked last four days of a long time, it has really been amazing!

Thursday:
Thursday was a sad day for me because it was going to be the last day I hung out with my roomies, Jenn and Linds, for about a few weeks. So Linds and I went shopping down to Lansdowne went to Chapters and saw some awesome books, hehe, on planning. We then saw our Sociology prof from last year and stalked her a little bit, lol. So to celebrate Linds' birthday we went out to Shoeless Joes with Jenn. Turns out I have a laugh which scared our waiter away, ain't that great? We were having a nice dinner celebrating and all, and got a free desert. We continued on our way home sad in our hearts because they were going home and I was staying at the apartment all alone to study. Then they decided to ask me to go and I did, obviously! That night I crashed on Linds' pull out couch with her and we discussed the mall we were going to the next day, we compared everystore to Oakville Place's. We don't know why.

Friday:
Friday I studied all morning!! Aren't you proud? So I studied, then Jenn picked us up and we went to the mall in Newmarket, we brought this chick Chrissy along to, which was cool. So we shopped for 4 hours! I bought sunglasses and Linds and I got whiny so it was time to go. Got home and called Troy, Lind's boyfriend, Linds and I decided to hang out with Troy and Mike. So we ordered a pizza, ate it with Troy and then proceeded to Mike's house to get drunk. Which we did. Oh. We did. We played Eucher and Poker, I WON POKER, guess I had awesome teachers. I don't think my glass was ever empty so I'm not even sure how many drinks I had. Apparently I was funny though. Landon called and that was apparently humerous to listen to, I was happy and then mad and then happy again. (I THINK IM STILL DRUNK, this doesn't seem to ...flow). We kept drinking, drank a lot of rum and a lot of coke and headed to bed around 4. I learned Mike snores really loudly.

Saturday:
Saturday morning we woke up and went to get breakfast, mmm breakfast. It was delicious and that was fun, so we did that and decided on the most beautiful day ever we should chill. So we chilled in Mike's backyard. Linds got burnt :(. We just drank water and sat around talking with Mike and his parents, then T.J came over as well. So that was all good. We went to Boston Pizza for dinner and then went 5-pin bowling, which was all wicked good. We (We being: Jenn, Linds, Troy, T.J. and myself) proceeded back to Jenn's house to, take a wild guess, drink. Drinking was fun, we played Kings and got TOASTED after that. Jenn's mom played with us and was HILARIOUS. It was an awesome night. Turns out I don't remember being in the bathroom for an hour, but I was. Then my new best friend came home. He's Jon Jon, actually just Jon, but Jon Jon to me. Jenn's little bro. so we all chilled. I passed out around 5, which I don't remember.

Sunday:
We did the breakfast thing again, it's a ritual which must be done! However it didn't happen until around 1pm. LOL, things got delayed a little. Went back to Linds, I attempted to study but passed out and so did Jenn, then we woke up at 4 and headed back to the P. dot.

In my head my weekend sounds SO much more fun and funny but I can't write about all the little detials because that'd be stupid. and last for like 5 years.

All in all I had one of the best weekends in while and I'm excited for 5 more sleeps to be over and the summer to be started, it's going to be one wacky summer. We planned for me to go home... that's Keswick - every few weekends or something, so that should be interesting, probably won't actually happen that way, but whatever! :)

I will feel a glow just thinking of you...

No idea what the title has to do with anything, except that it's the song I'm listening to right now.
Just a quick note...Sarah, dearest sister, if you're reading this - I hear you might be, call me sometime :-P!
So my weekend was eventful but not at the same time. I didn't do much of anything but I saw a variety of old friends I hadn't seen in a while. I didn't get to have very indepth conversations or anything but it was nice to just keep in touch. Friday Ashley and I grabbed a coffee, Saturday I spent time with Madds, then grabbed a coffee with Heather, then we made dinner for Mike, Madds, Monique, Fiona and Sean, Mique's new boy. That was actually really nice. We actually sat around the table and talked, and Sean said I was smart... I'll never drop that. It felt like family like it always does, so that was awesome! Then Landon and I hung out and got in our first since we got back together, it was tearful and overlydramatic which was my fault but only because of the hormones. I've got issues especially certain weeks of the year and I kind of overreact - or don't react and then overreact, like last night. I was ticked off because Landon was late, then went to see his dad, then didn't say the right thing. But when I think about it he was trying pretty hard, when we were alone he kept asking if I was okay, he gave me a massage, yet I was still bitchy. So anyway, the fight happened and we're okay today. Right now he's at work then a Volkswagon meet then over to see me and watch Alfie. Call me crazy but I'm really happy with the way I acted when he called! He invited me to go, but, as much as I love to keep tabs on him and be narotic and not give him his space I told him to go and we could see each other after! Then he said, so it's okay if I get there at 11:15? and I was like,"If you're here by 11:30 I won't be upset!" I even gave him more time!!! LOL, so I'm crazy, leave me alone.

I've got to find a job. I think it might be Sobey's as a cashier...that's really all I can think of, I don't need a hardcorejob, just something to pay off the credit card bill and start saving for next year. I've got a possible babysitting job lined up as well. Don't know if you care ornot... lol, I just enjoy spending money too much to sit on my bum and not work.

12 days until 2nd year is officially over... I'm getting old...

I don't get it...

I was watching t.v the other day and there was this documentary on weddings, it kind of went through all the processes; the engagement, the planning, picking out the dress, the bachelor/ette parties, the rehersal dinner and of course the big day. A couple of things stuck out to me... I'm sorry, but no fiance of mine is going to be having a bachelor party, at least not the kind with naked girls. They claim it's there last night of freedom, but as I recall you're still technically commited. I would just hate for that to happen, say your soon to be husband hooked up with some skanky girl just because. I mean, what does that really say about them? I just want to be sure the guy I'm marrying is interested in sleeping with me, not anyone else.
That kind of leads into my second point, according to this show between 50 - 80 % (depending where you get your sources) of men cheat on their wives... UHH WHAT? That's incredibly high, even at the low point! That's half... that means you have a 1 in 2 chance to get a guy who's going to stay loyal and faithful. It all scares me just a little. I don't ever want to deal with that pain. It's too scary.

Weekend...

I went home this weekend, didn't do much of anything actually, it was pretty nice. Saw Landon which was needed and excellent. We kind of bummed around, but that's what we do best together! Thursday he picked me up from Heather's - Heather and I watched friends, played Eucher, a bunch of nothing, but nice. Friday - I'm trying to think - we must have done something - we watching Finding Neverland - very, very good movie. I really enjoyed it! Just relaxed and everything, it was nice. Saturday we drove to Grimsby so he could see his car, then it was Lara's bday! Fun, fun. We went to Jack Astors for dinner and drinks then went over to this club/bar called IT. There was karaoke. BAD. We sung I touch myself, again, BAD. lol, I SUCK, and it's soooo embarressing. All together it was just Lara, Annie, Landon, Landon's friend Mike, and myself. A little crowd but not bad. Lara got drunk, as she should on her b-day! Stupid day light savings time kind of messed up the night, but well, nothing we can do about it. We had to drive Annie's car back to Lara's so I ended up in the car with Mike, so we got to talk and we haven't really ever done that, so that was good. Poor Landon though with Annie and Lara... they were pretty drunk, tee hee hee.
Today I woke up tired, grumpy and sick! I hate coming back to school, first being driven to TO, then the bus ride, then the 15 minute walk - in all honesty it's not THAT bad, but when you aren't in the best mood, it kind of sucks. My roomies came back tonight which was awesome because I didn't expect it. We watched Arrested Development and now they're watching Anchor Man - but I don't like that movie.
Last week of classes and I'm scared. Just so, so, scared. Exams and all, oh. AHH. I can't wait to just have nothing for a while. I can't wait for a new leaf next year, a new house, everything. It'll be awesome.

Just a note on the side: I've recently been informed that Landon thinks right now is the best the relationship has ever been. I'd have to agree, that makes me happy, but sucks because of some of the surrounding conditions. Oh well :)