Well, bad news today. Mom didn't get the job she wanted. They had hired all the people before she even talked to the stupid man who invited her in. But that's okay, "unward and upwards" are Mom's words. I asked her if she was okay and she said she could curl up in a ball and cry but that wouldn't get her anywhere. Funny because that's probably what I would do, at least for an hour or so.

Grandpa... who has been a jerk regarding money, what mom needs and being there for her actually did something kind of sweet today. Mom called her parents after she got home and told them what happened, then she called her friend. She got a beep and it was grandpa asking how much a stamp was, then she went back to her friend. Then he called back again and said, "You're roof needs to be re-shingled, make the arrangements and I'll take care of it." Which is really sweet, I still don't forgive him for the creep he's been over the last little while but maybe he's changing or learning from his mistakes.

Poor mom is calling all her friends who have been so surportive and I'm sitting here listening to her tell the same sad story over and over again. It kind of hurts a bit because I know what my mom is capable of and it hurts to see her struggling so much.


I don't know how my parents got in these deep but I guess it happens before people even really realize how bad it's become. Mom just keeps her faith and says she's not meant to have this or that and that there's ultimately something else there for her.

*Big sigh*

I sat outside today for a bit, in my pretty backyard. With our porch which is falling apart and crappy. Hence the pictures, just figured I'd document it. I checked the weather and apparently it's suppose to rain for the next few days so I wanted to take some pictures and get some sunshine while I could. I'll walk to babysitting too.

I share everything so I might as well share my health issues. My ovarian cyst is acting up again and actually really bothering me. I think it might be because I stopped the pill so now I'm producing more eggs again and cysts happen when the eggs are produced... but uh ow. I hope I don't have to go back on the pill again.

I've got a babysitting thing at 4 today, I'm just meeting the kids and the mom and getting acquainted with the house. I do that with most people I sit for these days, just to make sure everything's cool. The mom called last night while I was out and I had to call her back, this is a little embarrassing, I called and someone answered and I asked if their mom was there. It was her HUSBAND. Oh god. Why do I do these things to myself!? She got on the phone laughing and said she liked me all ready though!

It's only 8 or 9 sleeps until the cottage!! I'm so excited, I haven't been since October (so bad). I don't even think I've been to the cottage for a May 2-4 in a couple of years. Last year I know I was with Landon and we went to Guelph one of the days and played scrabble with Lara and Nick the other. The year before I think my parents went up north and I just had a party, I probably did the same the year before! Life has changed a lot though and I wouldn't give up going to the cottage for anything. I wanted to post a picture but it just wouldn't work :(.