69% Baby!!

So I got 69% on my seminar - it wasn't an actual speak out loud seminar because our class is too big, so basically we had to memorize it and write it down, but I got 69!! Now, most people would be like 69, whatever that's a C+ not exactly good, however... i didn't prepare for the seminar at all!! With my current sad state (which I feel is slowly diminishing) I couldn't bring myself to prepare for it. See, it was pretty easy in my opinion and I just found it a little blah! So I didn't bother, well except for making sure I understood key defintions. But I pulled of a 69%!!! Which brings me to my next point... regret.
I'm so full of regret sometimes!! Not in the way that I dwell on it, however, definately in the way that sometimes the negative thoughts do cross my mind. Now looking at how I pulled off a 69 without trying I think - god - how much better could I have done had I actually tried!! It gets to me. In highschool mostly because I didn't try all that hard - hell, at Appleby I barely tried, I handed everything in late, barely bothered studying - but I pulled off 70s - an equivelent to normal schools 60s. Then I switched schools and it was a little harder, turns out when you don't pay a tuition the grades don't magically become high when you suck! So I tried a little harder and pulled off a mid - 70. One of my classes even went from a 63 at midterms to a 74 at the final. But, if I had pushed myself, did a final proofread of some assignments really gone all out I could have pulled off high 80s - cause deep down, I'm kind of smart. My problem is just applying myself. And in all honesty ... I regret that now - I wish I was back there sometimes so I could give it my all and get into the school of my dreams (That would be the Queen's Con-ed Program, and in some ways I have partially fulfileld it because I am in the Queen's - Trent Con-ed Program). But, whatever, can't dwell on the past but I can change the future.